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Friday, August 18th, 2006
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11:11 pm - I <3 Titanic...
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My last entries were really really depressing, I've just realized. Things are looking up. I'm really glad you can always count on things to not suck forever. Nothing ever sucks forever. Also, nothing good lasts forever either. Robert Frost said "Nothing gold can stay" ... he was right. But you know... life flips around, live with it. I am :)
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| Monday, August 7th, 2006
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5:29 am - I think...
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I think my last entry was really depressed. Um... this one isn't. It's something, but it's not depressed.
Things pretty much suck right now, for one reason or another. I'm not quite sure how things are going to go, all I know is I hate suspense, I hate waiting. Sometimes you just have no choice but to wait and see what's going to happen. If I could do more to occupy myself than I'm doing now, I would... but there's not much I can do. What I need is rescue, I suppose. I also need to learn to be more self-reliant. At least I'm comfortable in the concrete knowledge that I am getting there. If there's one thing about myself that always reassures me, it's that I know I get better with time. I'm always one to learn from my mistakes and to take the cues from other people's mistakes. At least I know I will not be a complain-y jerk my whole life. I do, however, think I will always be this painfully generous. I don't think I can change the fact that I will almost always be a relationship martyr. I will always be the giver. What I need to find is an also appreciative giver.
I just hate it when you have found someone that makes you feel wonderful, and that completely understands you on one level or another. I guess I'm just the only one fighting for the connection that I ... thought... we had. Whatever. That's really all I can say, I guess. It's just not worth reasoning or weighing options. I've got to just sit back. Again, I can take comfort in the knowledge that things will eventually be good. I don't know how or when, but I am a good person. Things will eventually work out the way I'd like them to, and they will stay that way.
Then again, some people are just born with tragedy in their blood. Who was it that said that? I feel like Donnie Darko. I just wish I could understand the grand scheme like he did, and end it all, laughing. Sometimes you have to laugh... there's nothing else you can do. There is definitely definitely definitely no logic to human behaviour, but yet so yet so irresistable...
I'm just tired of... everything. You know? I don't want to go back to school, I don't want to sit at home, I don't want to think about people, I don't want to try and go to college or fight for a place in the real world, I don't want to do anything. You know what I want to do? I want to skip ahead. I want to make my own life, and skip ahead to it. I want to travel, I want to read as many books as I can get my hands on, I want to learn to cook really really well, I want to learn martial arts, I want to learn to fence, and draw, and play fantastic guitar and drums, I want to sing, and I most definitely want to dance. I want to own a snake and a rat, and have them be friends. I want to live in the country... and the city. But most of all, I want someone who understands and respects my philosophies. I want someone to love me, and to be generous and sweet, and say "yes, we might not be together forever, but I'd sure as hell like to give it a shot. Let's see what comes our way." I suppose right now I am not good enough for all that... but something will happen. Something will happen that will change everything. For the better. I just hope it happens sooner, rather than later.
I'm tired of being nice until my head aches, and getting little to nothing in return. If tears were dollar bills, at least I could pay for my own college tuition.
current mood: Fuck off
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| Friday, July 28th, 2006
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8:39 am - Myspace isn't working
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And I ... must... blog.
What do you do when someone you thought you were so compatible with, someone you thought maybe you were meant to be with, if you can call it that, just... throws you away. They just throw away your love and devotion for even the PROSPECT of a relationship that MIGHT be better? If they get that relationship... you move on. No other choice. Why hang on to someone who's in a relationship. But what if they realize you were right the whole time about everything, and then they want you back. What if they want you back? Sure, it feels good to have them want you... but do you actually take them back? I mean... you want it, right? You loved that person. But can you actually go back with someone who ditched you just to flirt with someone else guilt free? Can you forgive something that major? I'm not sure if I can. I want to, but even if I happened to redate this person... I'm not sure if I could ever forget about him doing that. About me being second best. Being kicked to the curb for something that is only a possibility... for someone that just keeps you hanging on when I give everything ... it hurts so much sometimes that I don't know what to do with all the hurt. Even if you're forced not to care about the person anymore, what do you do to get something that big out of your mind? Especially when people have done it to you before... You feel victimized, and then you think you've found someone who is about to rescue you, and it turns out they do the same thing, only 100 times worse. I just... feel like I can't even trust anyone anymore.
And also... what do you do when they tell you your entire relationship was cancelled out... by something YOU said, no less, no matter how justified you think you were in saying it...? I know I'll read back in this later and this particular paragraph may possibly be resolved. Not the above though. It would take a lot of sincerity to resolve the above. Sincerity is not something I come across much lately.
I mean how do you move on when you've put so much time into one person, and then they just end up alternately hurting you and making you happy? Every rational part of me says to go away. Go away until this person realizes how stupid they are and tries to make it up to you. However, I'm pretty sure nothing will be made up. If anything, I would expect a very sincere apology for just... disposing of me. For someone else. Someone who is hardly ... it doesn't matter. Comparisons don't matter. The fact of the matter is, I was won over into liking someone. Then won over into loving someone. Then told that I could not be loved in return because there was SOMEONE ELSE in the picture. Someone else who, this entire time, has basically just... kept him on a nice little lead. Give me some time to think about it. Give me two weeks to consider it. When all I've ever done is said "Do you need me? I will walk over in the middle of the night." "Would you like me to make you some food? Have this chinese food I warmed up and picked all the vegetables out of." "Do you want this? I will buy it for you. Don't worry, I will buy it for you." "I love you."
You know... to have someone rescue you from the heartbreak of being used and lied to is one thing. But to have that same person use you, and lie to you... is quite another.
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| Tuesday, July 11th, 2006
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5:32 am - Well, that was fast
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Shit I got over that in like a week! I feel like a brand new person. And no, I am honestly not saying that to cover up the emptiness inside. I miss being cuddled with, and I do enjoy the stability of relationships, but sometimes you just have to be single. And I accept that. I feel just... stronger... and more resilient, and more confident. Which is strange, because normally in this situation I would be depressed for MONTHS! I guess when you're faced with something you used to think was the most horrible thing in the world, your body and mind just... deals with it. Cool. I feel like a well-oiled machine. Sometimes I get down but when I find myself crying, I just... sing a disney song! Or something like that. I actually don't sing a disney song but that just popped into my head... it's a good idea too.
I guess when life kicks you in the face you just have to like... do a cartwheel and shake it off. And then go punch a baby.
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| Friday, July 7th, 2006
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1:32 pm - About that last entry
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Scratch that. Reverse it. We broke up. Never say "It will be ___ months on ___" or whatever. I had a bad feeling when I said that too. Well, fuck everything
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| Thursday, June 29th, 2006
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3:41 am - Oh. Dang.
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I haven't updated in..... um... since january. HELL! It's june, dudes. JUNE!!! Actually July this saturday... :-P
Well... what's happened since january. I kinda had a fling with jon again, and also a run in with someone else. I saw nin again in february (fan freaking tastic)... the thing with jon ended, zach came to the rescue... we all see where that went. It will be 4 months on July 10th. wow, it seems like it's been a lot longer than that. Weird. Not that that's a bad thing. I love the guy ^_^ He's very good to me.
saw rob zombie in april, that was pretty sweet. I got crushed into a fine dust though. By fat sweaty guys. TOTALLY WORTH IT!!! plus i got a sweet shirt out of the deal with a naked american witch on it. lol. concert tees are so goddamn expensive.
grandma's 80th bday party this saturday, that should be um... fun. ish. ??!? w/e... chocolate fountain. looking forward to a late july horror con and some six flags happenings. rikters at clearwater august 17th. hullabaloo! I think that sums up my life since january. don't it?
o yeah. i just made a cd. it is awesome.
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| Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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2:50 am - Uhm... wooT
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I'm feeling better than previous entries. Mere and I got things out in the open, so things are good now. No more awkwardness there, I thinks. With that all my other problems pretty much went out the window. I still feel out of place sometimes, but I'm ok just being with myself... if that makes sense. Whatever, I fixed it. January was atrocious, but February is looking up.
Everyone go see the talent show! ... it's gonna be great.
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| Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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3:52 pm - Ummm...?
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This entry is pretty much a continuation of the below one. I was thinking some more about that entry, and what I said, and I figured well, i could get it all worked out if i had someone to talk to about it. I mean REALLY talk to, someone that really knows me. Because I did talk to eric a lot last night (sherman) and he did help, but i need someone who knows me backwards and front to hear what I had to say if I'm going to get some seriously valid feedback (not that his wasn't). And then I thought well, who would that be? Becky? I think she would definitely help a lot, she always does, but I don't really have that much access to her right now. I could talk to clarissa, but she doesn't know me AS well as meredith obviously. So duh, meredith. But then that messes up the whole deal... because i don't know what's going on with her right now. I could just call her and talk to her about that, but it's an issue i feel strongly about, and i don't want to burst out crying on the phone... i'd be too embarrassed, and i'd be likely to do it. I don't know why I'd be embarrassed... she's my closest friend, we just never really cry in front of each other. I think maybe we both think too highly of each other to think the other one actually cries... or something. I don't know man, I think that's dumb... we're too good of friends to not hug, or not cry, or all that good stuff. I mean what are friends for if you can't count on them for that? I think that needs to change... maybe it will... but first:
Anyways, the rest of this entry is basically for meredith, so the rest of you can clear off!
ok well, i'm not mad at you... maybe clarissa said i was steamed, i was a little, but i'm more confused than anything. it's this whole kevin deal. First off let me say: I do not hate him. In the least. I think he's a cool guy. And he treats you good. (don't correct my grammar :) ) Maybe the reason you think I feel some kind of hate towards him is because I act weird whenever the subject is/was brought up... and I do, but only because I'm hurt that now you're spending more and more time with him, but you don't invite me with, or even tell me where you're going or what you did... it's like i said to clarissa, I usually know where you are, and more and more of your life is like blacking out... if you keep keeping all this kevin business a secret, and you keep spending more time with him, pretty soon you're just going to be completely separated from me. and that would SUCK. I'm not saying to stop spending time with him, i'm just saying i'd like to know once in a while, and if clarissa didn't tell you, i wouldn't be averse to us all hanging out.
another thing is... i don't know if you could fix this, i'm just telling you, and ... i dunno. it's just another reason why it makes me uncomfortable. remember when I said how i didn't like the fact that my mom was a different person when she was around tony? It's kind of like that. Now i love my mom, and I think tony's a cool guy, and tony's still the same guy when they're together, but my mom just gets kind of different. She becomes kind of a different person while they're together, not that much different, but you know all flirty and weird, and not the same person she normally is. also, she pretty much acts like i'm less important than him, and she ignores everybody else too. You ... pretty much do the same thing. I hope that doesn't make you angry or anything, but it's true. Clarissa said she agrees with me, I'm not trying to get her on my side, I just want you to know that I'm not saying this because i'm delusional or anything. I could deal with you being a slightly different person when he's around, that's not a big deal, I probably do the same thing from time to time without realizing it. I'm sure we all do once in a while. But as logan once so wisely said, you do not follow the "Bros before Hos" creed. I try to follow that as much as i can... and I think i've done so (I hope). But being around you guys kind of makes me feel like a second class citizen. Even when you go on the phone with him at my house... not that I'm saying you can't do that, because you can, you just leave the room for long periods of time when you do, and I feel kind of ignored. And I know you go online in the middle of the night when I'm asleep...
so really... I have nothing against kevin. i don't have anything against you either... so don't think i'm saying that. But i think we've talked about this once before, things need to be more out in the open. that entire novel that I wrote down below this one... I think the reason i feel changed is because I feel like you're separating yourself from me more and more, and I REALLY don't want that to happen. Clarissa said you've talked to her saying I've changed... but even if I have, we've changed before, and our friendship survived like normal... why would another change make a difference? We just have to adjust to each other. I think we could be best friends for life, you know like mom and lori. We just have to have things more out in the open. And since i basically just wrote another novel here... I think my thoughts are pretty much out in the open.
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12:53 am - Ain't it just a bitch, what a pain, well it's all a cryin shame
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So today wasn't so good... for various reasons. It had some ups and downs... but on the whole, not too great. At least I made money, I guess. So i've been in this funk lately... it's very hard to explain. I'd like to articulate it here so I have it documented... maybe I can work my way through it. It's very complex, it's like a multi-faceted confused rut. First off, I feel like I don't belong anywhere or with anyone anymore. There are no groups that I go to where I feel completely relaxed, accepted, needed, or at home. I feel like, or more specifically, i'm afraid that I've become the kind of person that no one really cares about. I really want to have one of those dynamic, magnetic, loveable personalities, but i feel like i just don't, and that one won't ever develop.
Sometimes when i'm talking to people, i can just feel their boredom. not always. i feel like i have no right to open my mouth anymore, or no one should even have to look upon me. Not only do i feel boring, I feel ugly. I feel like nothing special. I can almost feel myself drifting away from people around me... not everyone, but most people. I just feel social interactions dwindling, like those other people find me so easy to discard, and not missed once that's done. People I used to talk to or at least say hi to are just not around anymore. It's like I'm not worth the effort. Am I really not worth the effort? Part of me is positive that it's partially my fault, and that I don't put in the effort to talk to them. I feel guilty about that, because not only do I miss those people, but what if I'm making them think that THEY'RE not worth the effort? And also, what if i become the type of person that doesn't put up effort in friendships, and I just never have any real friendships again?
Back to me not having a magnetic personality... I'm afraid that I'm turning into a kind of adult I never wanted to be. Just a boring person. A person the world could do without... like if I left tomorrow, the world would say, "Meh. We can replace that." I'm also worried that I'm completely wrong about this and I am really a good person, but me thinking all this will cause it to come true. And if THAT'S the case, who can I turn to that will make me feel valued again? I feel like there's no one who has the time, patience, resources, or sympathy to want to help put me right again. Will these feelings go away of their own accord? My dark feelings have done so in the past, but this one feels different. It's like every time I'm almost out of it, I get dragged back in again. I don't know what it means. Is there some kind of inner conflict I'm not identifying with? Can I find that inner conflict and solve it?
Sometimes I feel like if I was a different looking person (physically), I wouldn't feel this way. I find myself envying other people for their faces, or their wardrobes, or something superficial like that. I hate that about myself... but I can't help it. I've recently become aware that I hate my profile. My face from the front... I like it (although no one else seems to), but my profile is just not me. It's ugly, it's angular, it's amorphous. A lot of little things about myself bother me. Sometimes I like the way I look, other times I just wish I could put a bag over my head eternally. I worry that if I hate a specific part of my body so much (my profile) that I might do something drastic one day about it... like it will become an obsession and my entire life will revolve around it.
Really, I worry about all this worrying. I mean I don't worry SO much, it's not constantly on my mind, but it's always in the back... eating away. It's like I'm the center of some Poe psychological thriller that was never published. I wonder if some kind words and support from someone will fix this funk... or if I really am just crazy and eternally insecure. I used to be so secure... i don't know what caused it. It's like my mental and emotional security turned on a dime, or maybe it was just a slow onslaught of unfortunate events that caused my state of mind. This is all just something that's weighing on my mind... I want to go back to normal. I almost feel like I've lost something in myself... and it makes me feel even more lonely to think that even I'm not there for myself anymore. But really... I know my real self is buried under all these questions somewhere. I just need help finding it again.
current mood:  determined
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| Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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1:05 am - Locked out of my house...?
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Grr... i locked myself out of the flat. Mom locked the door without telling me... and always makes me close it to keep in the heat when I leave the room. THANKS mom. Ugh. Well, finals tomorrow. Physics only. I made my notecards... 4 of them. I lost my PERFECT unit 5 notecard... can you believe that crap? I just had it before we left school, too. God damnit... now i'm all locked out. and xmen was on! *)#&$()*^!)!(*@~!!! Oh well
I got my hair cut... I really don't like it. It's too short. I told the lady not to short but man they never listen to what I say. Now I'm going to look stupid for a month. FUCK
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| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
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1:58 am - Friggin A
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This has been the worst christmas break ever. I haven't felt this low in a really long time... but I guess it has to happen to everyone once in a while. A bunch of crap went down... no drama, or anything, just those kinds of things that make you want to hibernate for a long time.
Mostly, I was just working. I worked and worked and worked... 41 hours, I was there every day for 2 weeks... ugh. I have to go back tomorrow. I'm so tired. In between work I basically just spent my time at home worrying about my homework and my finals and our talent show auditions, which I can't seem to get the group together to work on. I finally finished my pasta bridge... after working on it for 3 days... but it doesn't work. I tested it - it holds together under weight, but it slumps to the side. It's going to break, it didn't even hold 300 grams. It's supposed to hold 1000 at least. I did my other homework though... sort of. Well, now that I think of it, I hardly did any of it.
Usually when I'm overcome with schoolwork and anxiety I just let it pass over me because I can turn to my friends... right now I feel like I really have no friends left. They just kind of all disappated into the mist for various reasons, and I feel very alone. This has happened before, but never this bad. In the past when it happened, I would just curl up with my kitty. That probably sounds pretty pathetic. I used to think that no one would ever love me as much as Dusty did, and vice versa... but now Dusty's dead. He died a really painful death too, I had to watch it all. It was the worst thing I've ever seen. He was in so much pain, I would have rather had him get hit by a truck than die the way he did. My dad cried, and he hasn't cried since I was 11. I haven't been home since... Dusty died in my room, I don't want to go back in there.
I probably sound like debbie downer... but I don't care. No one really reads this...
current mood: lonely
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| Monday, November 7th, 2005
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5:28 pm - Voulez-vous coucher avec moi cet soir?
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HOKAY.
[]-_-[] that's me... jammin... to depeche mode.
so anyways, it's been a good week. i dunno. randomly... God, i suck at updating now! What happened to those days when I used to have daily witty observations... I've just gotten totally lazy. I'm like a slug! A really... hot...slug. That likes to eat rice cakes. OK, so on the bag it says "**DO NOT HEAT IN TOASTER OR MICROWAVE" ... why is that? What in rice cakes would cause them to flame/explode? I think I'm pretty much gonna have to do that. Set fire to rice cakes? That has to be pretty awesome to behold. Ach you know what else would be cool... is to set fire to a huge box of candy. Just imagine it... molten chocolate and peanut butter, boiling nougat and caramel, flaming peanuts, exploding bubble gum... it has to be awesome. I'm crazy.
So I have to work this weekend... psh. Come visit me at work, someone. I'm there from opening to closing. that blows. who wants to do something wednesday thursday friday saturday or sunday? i got no playns. (accent, not typo)
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| Sunday, November 6th, 2005
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10:31 am - "You look like HELL" ...said my mom
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ah man last night was pretty awesome... tho now i'm 40 bucks poorer. but worth it! man it sounds like i went to a prostitute. maybe i did. :) you dunno! you dunno!
well mere came over last n-- you know, i don't think ANYONE reads this? maybe fae... or occasionally fizz... other than that, who reads it? like no one! who cares. i'm still talking. so mee came over last night... we basically played cards and then went to sleep... woot. today i dunno what's goin down... i'm getting italian food delivered to me (lol) and then i have homework... ech. whateva, whateva, i do what i want!!!
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| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
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5:54 pm - it's chocolate, it's peppermint... it's delicious!
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alison's party was last night.... awesommmme. well, i had to work. but then after work i came home and had to get ready sooooo fast. i had to take a shower, get ready, pack for a sleepover/party, and eat a ginormous sandwich.. yum... all in about 50 minutes. i managed to do it tho. and then at alison's party... hmm... we played ddr, listened to some music, played cards, random stuff. it was fun tho. and then we watched scream and went to bed... s'about it. and then i came home, took a nap, now i'm ... up... yeah... wow i haven't updated in a while, so now i suck at it.. ... ...
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| Friday, September 16th, 2005
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3:42 pm - Guess what today is (not mexican independence day, stupid)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAE!!!!111!1ONE!!!!!
Miss ya buddy... this is an IOU one great present and one visit too... :)
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| Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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12:29 pm - Stupid myspace!
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Myspace wouldn't let me update so i'm updating on here.... plus my last update on hre was like august 10th so i should probably do that. back then my life was different (ah that sounds dramatic lol but there WAS a considerable difference back then then there is now).... so i guess i'm just updating to separate those two times. Like, if i have a leftover update as my most recent one on here a piece of that part of my life lingers, and i guess i want to stomp it out, if that makes any sense? .... i dunno. ignore me lol
anyways i went to beckita's house.... freaking huge. you suck becky :) what is that like 4 bedrooms? 3 bathrooms? 3 car garage? basement bigger than my whole house? oh well.... as long as i get to live there it's all good. we went to this pretty cool housewarming party at one of her neighbor's places... i kicked butt at horse and then i learned to play texas hold em which is pretty fun. and i also kicked some butt at pool. i sucked at first though. oh yeah. we played hide and seek :-D it was fun because her house is big, and we played in the dark .... i crammed myself under the bed somehow hahaha
tomorrow i'm going to some guitar place with brad.... i haven't played guitar in a while, man... i should get back into that. i don't wanna let mr sherman down he's totally rooting for me to be awesome at guitar
oh yeah, math team. first meet sept 29th at larkin JOIN MATH TEAM FOOLS!!!
(ps i'm not really apathetic i just think it's funny to have it say "Mood: Apathetic" (emosong)
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| Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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11:55 pm - I'm Ron Burgundy??
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So just got back from the green day concert. First show of the tour!! It was great. Ask me about it. I definitely got squashed.
current mood:  energetic
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| Sunday, August 7th, 2005
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11:08 pm - make the homies say ho make the girlies wanna scream
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Hey! this closet was full of TVs when i last checked and now there's none!
Um....
So I learned the ren and stimpy theme song on guitar. lol. it's pretty bitchin. good solo. Wait, scratch that, EASY solo. Easy.
Yeah there's nothing to say. Brad was over for a lil while... now i'm bored... you know. Got myself hooked on neopets. God save my soul... errr.
The end........ comment...... I dunno. :) Bring me food
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| Thursday, July 28th, 2005
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2:24 pm - New twist on surveys...damn i'm bored
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Ok i stole this from courtney :) Do a survey, type in your answer to the survey question on google image search, post the first thing that comes up.
What's your name? :: Tuesday 
Birthplace :: Elgin, IL 
Current location :: Same as above 
Zodiac sign? :: Aries 
Your heritage/nationality :: Euro-mutt
Your fears :: Needles and Razors 
Boyfriends/crushes name :: Brad 
What you did yesterday :: Went to six flags 
Book you're currently reading :: American Gods 
Haha, that brad thing cracks me up.... lol. well hey everyone else do it! :)
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| Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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11:48 pm - MORE SURVEYS... If I had stuff to do. lol.
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The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay. | Created by -ambiguous and taken 57538 times on bzoink! | | What comes to mind when you hear.. | | ..snow? | flake | | ..rain? | fall | | ..tornado? | twister | | ..summer love? | grease | | ..Jon? | travolta! | | ..Mike? | camacho? lol | | ..Shea? | butter | | ..banana? | coke | | ..dizzy? | gillespi | | ..Laura? | schroeder?? | | ..Juan? | pablo dos | | ..car? | vroom vroom | | ..white? | wedding | | ..peppermint? | fax machine | | ..New Found Glory? | sucks | | ..placebo? | placenta | | ..orange juice? | stone cold killa | | ..candid camera? | you're on it! | | ..sister? | brother | | ..brother? | oh... um, sister | | ..hate? | country music | | ..school? | summer break | | ..President? | bush sucks | | ..football? | american | | ..rap? | fiddy cent | | ..pop? | rocks | | ..rock? | classic | | ..punk? | sex pistols | | ..sex? | drugs, rock and roll | | ..death? | salmon mousse | | ..baby? | simba | | ..duuude? | i got a crappy feelin about this (arj barker) | | ..the end? | DUN DUN DUNNNN | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
Chose between... | Created by bhappy99 and taken 9938 times on bzoink! | | Free movies for a year or free CDS for your life? | Free CDs for life - HELLO! but only if you could control the amt. and type of cds that came in | | School or work? | work because you get money for it | | Christmas or birthday? | birthday because then only YOU get the presents! haha | | Peanut Butter M&MS,Regular M&Ms, or Peanut M&MS? | peanut butter, yum! | | Dozen Roses or 3 boxes of chochlate? | dozen roses, they're so pretty | | Sandra Bullock or Julia Roberts? | julia roberts all the way, you can't beat pretty woman | | Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise? | BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!! only if they're in interview with the vampire though | | Vanilla Pepsi or Vanilla coke? | ewww neither, i don't like vanilla pop | | American Eagle or Abercromie and Fitch? | neither neither neither! | | Driving or flying? | flying, i wish I could fly | | Roller skating or ice skating? | ice skating, it's too much fun | | Apples or oranges? | ummm apples with pb, otherwise oranges | | Paris, France or Florence, Italy? | PARIS!!! the city of love and lights | | Punk'D or The Newlyweds? | punk'd, jessica simpson is slow | | Jay Leno or David Letterman? | letterman | | New York or LA? | NY | | AOL messenger or MSN messenger? | aim, of course | | Jennifer Aniston/Brad Pitt or J.LO/Ben Affleck? | they're both broken up so who cares | | Ralph Lauren or Tommy Hilfiger? | neither, i don't really do designers | | leaf raking or snow shoveling? | leaf raking because that means it's fall! halloween! | | black pen or blue pen? | black | | WalMart or Target? | they both have crap.... target | | picnic under the stars or horse carriage in the park? | picnic under the stars ^_^ how romantic | | chochlate chip cookies or peanut butter cookies? | chocolate chip mmm | | Kobe Bryant or Shaq? | who cares | | basketball, baseball, or football? | baseball is pretty rockin | | Hiliary Duff (Lizzie Mcguire) Or Lindsey Logan(Freaky Friday)? | lindsay LOHAN, not logan. but i pick her. | | French fries,curly fries, or tator tots? | tater tots... go get your own! GOSH | | Ben Affleck or Matt Damon? | matt damon ANYDAY | | Phoebe, Monica, or Rachel(off of FRIENDS)? | I hate friends | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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